It is nothing but painful to look back on happy memories with someone you still love or used to love. It was a time when everything was simple, but worked out and you were nothing but sure that this is what you needed to survive in this world. I wish I could keep you in my life forever, but I can’t; not in the way you hoped or could hope for forever. I’ll never forget what we had, it’s as real as it gets and I am nothing but grateful to have been able to love and put faith in someone like you. Thanks to you I am stronger. You have touched my life dearly. I love you, I love you.

I need someone to save me but i gotta save myself. It’s so hard to fend for yourself sometimes when you’re desperate for help. It’s so hard when all you have left to help you is to be hopeful on a silly fantasized happy future that may or may not happen. It may sound ridiculous to believe that things will work out the way you want in the end, but I believe if you stay strong and put your all into being better when it kills, you’ll get what you’ve been hoping for. The reward of satisfaction will move your life beyond measure. It’s so hard to have to be alone and fall apart and convince yourself that you’re better than what you’re feeling; to do so without giving into your demons that cripple you each day. But you do it because you need to be better, for your sake.o